restored.

heyyyyyyy.

today is good friday, and it truly is 'good'. I feel like i should be filled with sorrow because a long time ago my Savior died for me on this day. However, this tragedy brought about the greatest good that there can be, redemption. So i guess calling it a good day is maybe an understatement. i shall call it Great Friday.

since my last post, many important things have happened in my life. 1) Most importantly, i have gotten back on track with God. and it feels awesome. 2) also since my last post i have planned out my entire life, tentatively. which makes me very happy because i love having things planned. 3) alsooo i have gained much wisdom (or so i think) and insight. i dont know why or how.. but many things that i have had to deal with in the past few months have really made me "grow up" so to speak.

just to explain things a little more i numbered off the huge changes in my life, since you all care so much. ha.

1) GETTING ON TRACK WITH GOD-
this all started when i went to College Station to stay with Summer (my sky ranch camp counselor / mentor / friend / older sister figure ) for a weekend. On my last night there we stayed up really late just talking about God. When she asked me hard questions i gave her the dumbest answers. they sounded so good in my head, but when they exited my mouth they sounded REDiculous. On the way home from a&m and the rest of that weekend i spent the majority of my waking hours in prayer or just soul searching. That sunday night at CREW (my youth group) i had to decide if i was leading retreat. since i made a concious decision to 'walk the walk and talk the talk' i also decided to lead retreat. i will touch more on retreat in number 3. hah. anyways, it has been amazing how much i have changed since that weekend in College Station. i feel new. and restored.

2) MY LIFE IS PLANNED OUT- so basically i have my life planned out completely. God probably has a completely DIFFERENT plan in store, but this is tentatively what i have planned. I'm going to LSU for an undergrad degree in pre-med. There i will be in a sorority just has all my family who goes to LSU including my mom has done. After my freshman year, i will apply to get a counselor position at Sky Ranch hopefully resulting in me working there. After three more years pass, i will then go on to LSU dental school in new orleans. I will hopefully meet a man of God somewhere in there and we will be happily married with several children.

3) I HAVE GAINED WISDOM- i am not really sure when this happened or how it happened, but recently i feel like i have grown up a little more. As the end of my Junior year is drawing near, it is becoming more real that I am about to enter into my last year of high school... To older people that are in college or even out of college, i am still so young and immature. however, to a kid in elementary school being a senior seems like a big accomplishment. After being put in a leadership position at the Getaway retreat at sky ranch with my church, i really think some switch in my head turned on. It is hard to describe but so are many other things in life. like the taste of water. or something.

so i'm obsessed with candles. i love them. i like to compare my faith to a candle. if my faith was a candle, i would want to be a trick candle. that even when people try to blow you out, you still stay lit. this trick candle will never go out. and that is just how its going to be.



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oh yea, and. donating blood was the worst experience of my life. kthanks.